Are you a worrier? Do you spend more time worrying about what may (or may not) happen than actually enjoying the process?
If you answered yes to either or both of those questions, take heart. I was there once too! And it is a HARD habit to break.
But here's the thing. Worrying isn't productive. And most of the time, what you are worried about doesn't even happen! So you spend a lot of time...no, you WASTE a lot of time worrying over absolutely nothing!
I spent SO MUCH time being that person. The worrier. Worrying about what may happen. Or what may not happen. And I wasted SO MUCH time actually enjoying where I was and the process it took to get there.
And I feel like God continually put me in similar situations to help me learn to NOT be the worrier. And boy, was I in A LOT of situations where I worried...a lot. Too much.
Goodness, I look back and shake my head at the things I worried about. And at how many times I had absolutely nothing to worry about because it all worked out. Every. Single. Time.
And worse, at all the things I worried about that I had absolutely no control over. That no matter how much I worried about it, nothing I did could have changed the outcome.
Y'all... worrying gets you a whole lot of nothing. Well, nothing but heartache and stealing your peace.
I always used to say I put my trust and faith in God, especially when it was things I couldn't control. But I still tried to hold on to control. I still tried to control it all. So I worried. And it made me anxious. And it wasn't productive.
But in situation after situation, I would still worry. It wasn't until after our last miscarriage with Kynsleigh that I truly let go and let God. It didn't matter what I did, how hard I tried, how much I changed, what happened to her was out of my control. As hard as that is to admit and realize, I could have changed nothing about what happened.
I leaned a lot into God throughout the entirety of that happening. And I continue to do so to this day. When I feel my anxiety and worries rising to the surface, I pray and ask God to bring me peace...to take away those worries and anxious feelings. I wish I could explain how much it helps, but I immediately feel a sense of peace wash over me.
I've let go of my need to control everything. It's only taken me MY WHOLE LIFE thus far, but it feels good to finally let go! Because the ultimate truth is that I really don't have much control over much of anything.
It's more peaceful this way for me. For Nick. For everything. I'll be okay, no matter what happens. I've learned and lived that over and over again.
So how can I help you let go of control? Because I know how draining it can be. And I'd love to help you.
I hope you have a beautiful last week of February (already).
With love and wellness,