Looking for Answers...

So for those of you who know me, I was an investigator in my previous life. But even without that, I've always been naturally inquisitive.

I've always asked "why" with everything. Seriously...just ask my mom. I'm pretty sure she hated that word when I was growing up! 

I always wanted to know. I wanted to know the "why" behind everything. I couldn't accept the "just because" answer, or whatever lame response I would get. It's almost like I needed to know the answers. I had to know everything. 

It's one of the reasons why I didn't rest after everything happened with my ex-husband in 2017. I kept asking questions. I kept digging. I kept looking for more. Because I knew there WAS more. 

But I digress. 

This isn't about the craziness that happened to me then. It's about what I'm going through now. 

After having three miscarriages in a row where the baby stopped growing at 7 weeks, I wanted to know why. Yes, I get that we may never know the exact reason, but at this point, I saw a pattern. There was something more going on and I wanted to know what it was. 

Google became my best friend. I searched for the silliest things, but it led me to things I never would have thought to ask my doctor about. 

For instance, the MTHFR gene and that the mutation of this gene could cause recurrent early miscarriages. And by learning about this and talking to my mom about it, I learned that my mom has an MTHFR mutation. And surprise surprise, this is genetic! 

So I talked to my doctor about it and she agreed. So we are testing for it! We are in the waiting period now, but it makes me feel better knowing that we are at least DOING something, anything, to find answers. Or at least to rule things out. 

I also asked if there were any immunological or blood clotting disorders that could be causing our miscarriages. But our doc already tested for those and we're good there. Thankfully. The doc also tested my thyroid levels and they came back well within the normal ranges. 

So we're doing something...we're taking action. I'm not just sitting back, waiting for the next pregnancy or the next, God forbid, miscarriage. If there's something going on and there's a fix for it, I want to know. I NEED to know. 

I do my research. I look for what could possibly be causing the miscarriages. I look for answers. Not just with this, but with everything in my life. Nick thinks I'm a little crazy, but I like to know things. I can't help it...that's just me. 

I'm also taking additional supplements to help with my egg quality, since that's the only thing that came back with the initial fertility testing. I'm doing all I can to get answers, to get us our baby. I'm ready to be a momma (above and beyond my bonus kiddos)! 

And one last thing...my doc recommended mini stimulation IVF. Has anyone had any experience with that? I'd love to hear any success stories (or not)...or really, just hear anything at all about it. It's a lower med IVF procedure that aims to get 4-6 eggs instead of the traditional IVF of 8-15. The eggs would be fertilized with Nick's sperm and then genetically tested to make sure the embryos were good/high quality. Then, if yes, they would be transferred into my uterus. It would be more of a guarantee that our embryo is high quality, thus we wouldn't be concerned with genetic abnormalities. 

However, if there is something else going on, I obviously need to know those answers because the same thing would continue happening without any intervention or treatment. 

So that's where we are. I want to be as open as I can with our journey and what we're looking at. 

I love y'all and appreciate your love and support and prayers. 

Have a beautiful week. 

With love and wellness,
​Whitney