We spend so much time trying to figure it all out. Everything from what we are doing with our lives. Job situations. Marriages. Kids. Money. All of it.
And in trying to figure it all out, we stress ourselves to the max. We overthink everything. We try to control what happens. And then we're unhappy with the outcome when we CAN'T control any of it.
I go through periods where I remember that I'm not in control and God has everything in His hands and I'm at peace. And then, other times, I stress and worry because I think I'm the one who has to control everything...that I'm the one who has to make sure everything turns out okay. And...well...we all know how that turns out.
We ask ourselves, or at least I did (and occasionally still do), "Why me?" whenever anything happened that I didn't agree with or want to happen. And while I tried not to let it get to me, it always did. I couldn't understand why things were happening that I didn't want. That I couldn't control.
It's hard letting go of control. Of anything. We like to be in control...or feel like we are in control of everything. And in reality, we are in control of very little in this world. We control our thoughts, our feelings, our attitudes, and how we react to others. But really, there isn't much else. And that's a hard thing to come to terms with.
I know that I was a self-proclaimed control freak for a long time. I hated not being in control. I hated feeling like I couldn't or wasn't in control of my life.
It seems so silly to write that, because I now realize I wasn't in control of my life at all. Duh.
God has our whole life planned out long before we were even thought of to our parents. And yes, we are free to make choices in our lives, because there are always choices. But in the end, God has it all mapped out already. Whatever is meant to happen is going to, regardless of how much we try to control it.
Everything I've gone through, all the situations, the hardships, the troubles, and yes, even all the good things...they've led me exactly where I am now. They've pointed me in the direction I'm supposed to go. They've made me who I am supposed to be.
And the best part is that I'm still a work in progress.
I know that I have to let it all go...the need to be in control of what happens. I have to trust and have faith that God has something so much more in store for me.
And when I stop to thank God for all He has done for me, I find myself at a peace I don't often feel. He has always provided for me, even when I thought I was handling it all on my own.
So stop stressing. Stop worrying. Stop fretting over the what if's or what may happen. Have faith. Trust. Believe that there is something so much more (than you) looking out for you. Because in the end, God always provides. And He shows me this exactly when I need it most, over and over again.
I hope you all have a beautiful week!
With love and wellness,