I’ve been so hard on myself these past few weeks. The above thoughts are all ones that have gone through my mind several times recently.
It’s. Driving. Me. Crazy.
So I am now a certified LTL Live the Lifestyle Weight Management Coach. I “graduated” October 12th and have been going through the 12-week program myself for six weeks now. I love the program in that I’ve lost a ton of inches (in those hard to lose places that NEEDED it!) and have toned up and leaned out like I wanted to.
However, I struggle with one part of it…the Monday morning weigh-ins and measurements. I should look forward to it, but it has really been stressing me out. I eat healthy and I know that I am maintaining and where I need to be (for my active lifestyle). But I dread Monday mornings!
I start thinking, “What if I didn’t lose anything? What if I gained? Am I going to get yelled at (by my coach)?” And it becomes this intense pressure to make sure I haven’t gained, which means I beat myself up if I eat something I “shouldn’t.”
I.e., I try to be PERFECT in my eating!! Uuuugggghhhhh!!!
Talk about stressful. And TOTALLY unnecessary!!
I know, without a doubt in my mind, that the numbers are NOT important! When I eat healthy, I feel amazing. And I have been feeling amazing. And my clothes are looser. And I keep getting comments and compliments from people on how lean I’ve gotten (and in fact, have been told to not lose too much!!).
So I *know* that I am doing exactly what I should be. Yet, I am so hard on myself to make sure that Mondays are a LOWER number!
I hate (and hate is a strong word) that mentality!! I hate focusing on the numbers. Will I continue eating healthy and the way LTL has taught me? Absolutely. Will I continue tracking my numbers after the 12 weeks? Nope. Because I hate the stress I put on myself doing it.
Did I eat *exactly* the way I should have this weekend? Nope. I went out of town and spent the weekend with the girls (it was amazing and much needed!). And I had a darn good time! I enjoyed some yummy beverages and even yummier food! And guess what? I STILL lost weight and inches this morning!
My point in all this is that I am more than the numbers on the scale! *You* are more than the number on the scales! How do you feel? How do your clothes fit? How is your sleep quality? What does your skin look like? If the answers to these questions are all positive, then you are exactly where you need to be!!
Yes, LTL has gotten me where I want to be physically…I toned the areas I wanted and leaned down in the areas I needed it. But the number on the scale DOES NOT define me!! It fluctuates every week for a VARIETY of reasons!! And that’s okay! Do my pants still fit me? Yup (well…actually, no, because they are WAY too loose now, LOL). So I am doing great!!
Don’t be so hard on yourself. Really, what I am saying is, “Whitney, don’t be so hard on yourself.” Because we all need that kick in the pants sometimes…including me. I am exactly where I need to be and doing what I need to be doing.
And you know what? I enjoyed my weekend! And I shouldn’t beat myself up because of that! I’m back on track today, and no worse because of it!
With love and wellness,