We're living in such an uncertain time right now. From where our next paychecks are going to come from (if you're not essential and/or been laid off) to our next workouts in an actual gym (we can only do the same movement so many times, right?!) to when we'll be able to visit and see our friends and family again.
There's no set end date to when we'll be able to go back to "normal." And for many people, that's so hard to grasp. It causes anxiety and nervousness and worries.
And normally, it would cause all those things for me. I would be a nervous wreck. I would be panicking and wondering how we were going to survive through this. For you see, Nick and I both work on commission. And while he is considered essential and still working and I work from home using e-commerce, it's been much slower than normal (understandably so).
But in this world, there are SO MANY things we can't control. And I've worked an awful lot on being okay with that. On having faith over fear. On not letting my worries and anxieties control me. On controlling what I can and letting the rest go.
I'm so incredibly thankful that it's been something I've worked on, because it is 100% much needed right now.
Every night and multiple times a day, I pray over everything. Especially everything that I can't control. I know God has the best plan for me and my family, so I've learned to trust in that. To let my faith be so much bigger than my fear.
And it's not easy. I'll be the first to tell you that. But it is definitely worth it. To have peace of mind. To know that we will be okay, no matter what happens. That God has everything under control.
And of course, I still have my moments. But I recognize them so much faster than before. And I don't let myself spiral into that "what if," negative place. I immediately turn to prayer, taking deep breaths as I hand everything over to God. I do what I can to control what I can, but I let everything else go.
It also helps to have an amazingly supportive husband, who always reassures me and lets me know that everything will work out. Because, in our experience, it always does!
If you're going through a tough time with all of this and need someone to talk to or to pray for you, please, please, please reach out. I would love to be that person for you. I know it will be from afar for now, but know that I am here.
I hope you all have a beautiful week. Stay safe (and sane!).
With love and wellness,