So as you guys know, Nick and I are working on expanding our family. We are actively trying to get pregnant.
This process is a fun one. However, it is also very nerve wracking.
After having two miscarriages, I can't help but wonder what will happen next. Will we have another miscarriage? Will we have our rainbow baby?
The not knowing is the hardest part. I want to say that I'm okay with letting go and letting God take control. But it's really darn hard!
How do you not overthink the whole thing? Even after seeing two lines on the pregnancy test, even after not having your period, how do you not overthink it?
I would love some advice going into this. As you all know, I'm a planner. I would like to have some peace of mind as we go through this process and hopefully, not stress too much over it.
I feel like I'm going to have the doctor on speed dial when it does happen. Like I'm going to take 8,000 pregnancy tests just to make sure everything is okay. But is there really any guarantee? Or anything that will give you peace of mind until you are actually holding that sweet baby in your arms?
I'll be honest. In the last couple years, I had given up hope on ever having kids. I didn't think it was in the cards for me. I thought that I was meant to be a step-mom and an aunt and a god mom.
But after my life changed and I met Nick, I realized just how badly I wanted a baby of my own. I want someone to call me "mom."
Now, don't get me wrong. I love my step-children and my god-children and my nieces and nephews as my own. And if that's all I'll ever have, I will be happy.
But I truly hope God has other plans for me.
So...any advice you all have as we head into this great unknown would be greatly appreciated.
I love you all and I'm so thankful for each and every one of you. Thank you for following my crazy journey, including all the ups and downs of it!
Have a beautiful week!
With love and wellness,