I had very specific cravings when I was pregnant. As in, I didn't want anything else BUT what I was craving. And I didn't want it if it wasn't that. Needless to say, we spent a lot of money on me getting my specific cravings.
I was looking forward to having Gabriel so I could get back on track with my eating and start feeling better. I had lots of cravings for sweets (shocker) so I knew it would be rough coming off the sugar. Thankfully, it wasn't as bad as the picture above, but I definitely wanted milkshakes and cookies and brownies. And doubly thankfully, but I did it in moderation, not every day.
However, my 4th trimester has been just as weird with specific cravings and literally nothing sounding good to eat. It has become really hard for us to meal plan or grocery shop because my "normal" food sounds disgusting to me. I truly couldn't have anticipated this happening.
So I'm trying to give myself grace and know that I am still chock full of hormones and healing and adjusting to having a baby and the trauma of the c-section (aka, major surgery). I'm eating healthy, but I'm not beating myself up if I want something sweet.
It's hard when you've eaten a certain way for awhile prior to pregnancy, then you get pregnant and the usual stuff you've eaten sounds disgusting. Like, turns your stomach disgusting. So then you end up eating what you crave (I did crave lots of salads, thankfully), but it's all different from how you ate before.
And now it's hard because how I usually ate still sounds pretty gross. I still want bread (gluten free, but still) and lots of dairy/cheese. But I'm suspecting that it isn't working for Gabriel because he's super fussy. And I was lactose intolerant as a baby, so I'm wondering if it's the same for him.
There's so many things you have to take in to consideration when you're pregnant, post-partum, and breastfeeding. Eat this, not that. But make sure you are only eating it in moderation. But don't forget to eat this too. And don't eat too much sugar or sweets.
But then your body is like, "No thanks, I don't want to eat any of that. But this (that I shouldn't have) sounds great." Then you start beating yourself up for eating whatever it is.
It ends up being a vicious cycle, if you let it.
So I'm working on the grace part...in every aspect of motherhood. It's all hard. And it's all a learning curve. And as long as I'm producing enough milk and my baby is thriving, then I know I'm doing something right.
So here's to taking it one day at a time...giving myself grace and allowing myself to take the time I need to heal and recover, however that looks for me... No comparing myself to anyone else or their journey because we are all different. And I will eventually get back to where food actually sounds good again.
I hope you all have a great week. I seriously can't believe we are in October already. I feel like it was just September 1st!
With love and wellness,