I like to think I have it all under control. That I know what's coming next. And that I can control the outcome.
But that's a laugh. Because then something huge happens and you...well, I...very quickly realize I have ZERO control. Over much of anything, other than how I react.
Let me put it in perspective.
Can we control the weather? Can we control the car in front of us and how fast (or slow) they are driving? Can we control other people's reactions or behaviors? See where I'm going with this?
We've all been there. Moving merrily along in our lives, thinking everything is going smoothly. We have it all figured out, all under control. And BAM! Life gets flipped, turned upside down.
Yes, I am obviously going through an incredibly trying time right now. The biggest thing I've learned from it, especially over the last two weeks, is that I can't control this situation. I can't control the outcome. I can't even control the day to day activities of what's happening. But I can control ME and how I respond to it and what I put out into the world. And let's be real...THAT is the most important part, at least for me, right now.
There is no sense in stressing over the things I can't control. I allowed my anxiety to get the best of me over the first several days, but then I remembered who was in control. I put it all in His hands and gave up trying to control everything. The immediate sense of peace I felt was amazing. And so much needed.
One of the biggest changes for me, and something that I have found to be incredibly helpful, is to thank God for putting me in this situation. Yes, it sounds silly, because it obviously isn't the greatest situation, but I obviously needed it. I wouldn't be in this situation if I didn't. God has a bigger plan than I will ever know...one day, it will be evident. And I have to trust that He is in control and that I will come out stronger on the other side.
What have you found helpful when you are put into situations like these? We've all been there. We've all so desperately wanted control in uncontrollable situations. I'd love to know your tips on getting you through.
I've done a lot of praying, writing in my journal, talking to trusted friends and confidantes. It's unhealthy to keep it all in, to bottle it up inside. That's pretty much what got us in this mess to begin with. But I digress.
So, for now, I am giving up control. I pray that everything works out, however it's going to. Whatever that is, whatever that looks like. Nobody but God knows His end plan; so let's stop assuming we do and let's stop trying to control what's going to happen.
I love you all. And I thank you for your support and prayers. Y'all are awesome, and I'm so thankful for each and every one of you!
Have an awesome week!
With love and wellness,