So this weekend I visited my mom in northern VA. I haven’t visited her since November, which is crazy. She’s been to see me a couple times and we’ve seen each other in Colorado, but I think this has been the longest it’s been since I’ve visited her. It was a much needed weekend…a girl can never have too much time with her momma.
But needless to say, I over-indulged…quite a bit. I had (a whole lot of) sangria, gluten free pizza from domino’s, gluten and egg free oatmeal and chocolate chip cookies (which were flippin’ amazing, I might add!!), and 3.5 Justin’s dark chocolate and peanut butter cup packs (thanks Ben). I had other healthy eats in between, but my sugar intake was incredibly high this weekend.
And boy, could I tell. My energy levels have been pretty low and I’m just plain exhausted. I’ve also had a pretty bad headache all day. But I needed this weekend. Big time. I enjoyed every last thing that I ate, and I enjoyed the time spent with my momma. I needed the advice and love and support that she always gives me.
Let’s see…here’s a quick recap of my weekend. I ate (a lot), I drank (more than I normally do), I talked (about everything), I questioned (my life decisions among other things), I laughed, I cried, I doubted myself, but in the end, I realized a whole lot about myself and my life. It’s not often we get weekends away from our normal lives where we can reflect on our lives and have the opportunity to change our perspective.
I’ll be the first to admit I had a rough day yesterday. I’ve been sad about my recent break-up and the changes in my life. I keep questioning how I got here…how we got here. But there were so many things that led us down the path where we are now. And I realized this weekend that I’m okay with that.
I won’t go into any personal details, because it wouldn’t be fair to me or him, but let’s just say that he is not the person I thought he was. And I’m sure he’d say the same about me. We were very different people and rushed into our relationship very quickly, despite the warnings and the words of wisdom we received from friends and family. We thought we knew best. We thought it was forever.
I also realized that I have a really bad habit of not trusting myself or listening to my intuition. And I keep getting myself into these same situations…I was asking myself why and how this weekend. But you know what? I haven’t learned anything from my past mistakes…no, not mistakes…my past lessons. Every situation is a lesson that is supposed to teach us something. And in life, when you keep repeating the same lessons, it means you aren’t learning from them.
So my goal from this lesson is to learn to listen to and trust my intuition. I don’t have to know why or what the answer is, but if something doesn’t feel right and my gut is telling me that, I NEED to start listening to it! I always argue with myself and talk myself out of feeling whatever it is I’m feeling instead of listening to it. I did it in this situation too. And all it did was cause problems, which led us to where we are now.
I found this picture awhile ago…it’s so accurate. We may not know why or how we know, but there’s something deep within us that just knows. Learn to listen to it…to trust it….to follow your instincts. Because that’s what I’m going to do.
What are your tried and true methods of listening to and trusting your instincts? I’d love to hear about them in the comments.
Also, because how could I forget, but Happy Easter!! I went to church with my momma this morning…here’s a before church selfie :)
I hope you all had a beautiful weekend and enjoyed time with friends and family.
With love and wellness,