While this past year has been full of changes, none has been as big as the changes in my thoughts and my belief. With everything that happened to me, I found myself doubting where I was in life and what I could accomplish, especially on my own.
I didn't know if I would ever be able to find my way back...to what, I'm not sure, but I didn't know if I would ever get back there.
And for a long time, I wanted to get back to where I had previously been. I tried my darnedest to get back there. And I was spinning my wheels...I was super frustrated and because of that, nothing happened. I didn't move forward at all.
At the end of the summer in 2018, I realized that I couldn't go back and be the same person I was before. Nor did I want to be that person anymore. So what I was trying to do was impossible.
It took me awhile to figure out how to get where I wanted to be. I'll be honest...I think I over-thought the crap out of it, which happens to be one of my specialities.
I spun my wheels for awhile...again. I mean, I couldn't figure it out. It just seemed like I couldn't get myself back on track, no matter what I did.
So. Darn. Frustrating.
Until it hit me. I mean, like full on hit me.
I didn't believe in myself anymore. I didn't believe in my abilities and what I could do. I had let the circumstances of what happened bring me down. I had let them beat me...almost.
As we ended 2018 and I was finally getting my life back to where I wanted and needed it to be, I knew 2019 was going to be different. Not only because I have my best friend standing next to me and helping me achieve my goals, but also because I got ME back!
I realized that the only thing holding me back was ME! I was making excuse after excuse. I hate to admit it, but I was blaming everything else but me.
I got a book for Christmas called the Five Minute Journal...I talked about it in a previous blog post. All I know is that it really helped me focus on the things I am grateful for and to re-focus my belief and confidence in myself.
I know it doesn't seem like much, but it has helped me tremendously. Changing my mindset and remembering that I am enough and worthy of success. And that it doesn't matter what has happened to me...that it doesn't define me.
And so far, I have taken 2019 by storm. I've made some changes in my business and I'm making big plans for my future. And I don't plan on slowing down!
I truly believe that what the mind can believe, the mind can achieve. And I don't know about you, but I'd much rather focus on the positives and what I'm grateful for than wallow in what I don't have. Because I am pretty darn blessed!
I hope you all have an awesome week. And focus on the positives this week! You'll find it makes a big difference!
With love and wellness,