I’ve been pretty hard on myself lately. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally. It’s like nothing I’m doing is good enough....for me.
For instance, I keep beating myself up about my business ventures and how things aren’t going the way I’d hoped. And I injured my knee so I’m not training like I’d like to...or hard enough.
And don’t even get me started on my emotions. The competition my gym hosted on Saturday had me in (happy) tears multiple times! There’s nothing like seeing your gym members and athletes push past their mental and physical capacities and giving it their all! But being in tears in front of a crowded gym? Well...there’s that!
As strange as it sounds, lately I’ve felt as if I haven’t been giving my all in everything I’m doing. And for me, that’s a hard pill to swallow.
But here’s where I have to constantly remind myself that not everything is going to happen perfectly when I want it to. And not everything is going to be done perfectly or gracefully.
And honestly, I have to give myself grace.
It’s what we seem to easily give everyone else, but not ourselves. We are certainly our own worst critics and hardest on ourselves. We continually demand perfection of ourselves, but we don’t from anyone else.
Hmmmm. See the problem in that?
So as I head into this week, I am giving myself a break. Because I’d like to think that last summer was the hardest thing I ever had to go through...that it was a one and done kind of deal. But realistically, it has been ongoing and continuously hard as new things pop up and I am still working through a lot of the legal headache. And yes, it has been insanely emotionally taxing.
And double yes...I HAVE to give myself grace. Allow myself the time to step back and rest. To process everything that’s going on. To know that in spite of everything, I am giving it my all, even if it’s not my normal “all.”
Because when I stop to think about it, I am doing pretty darn well. My business is continually and steadily growing. And while I may not be able to Rx the workouts, I am able to focus on my upper body weaknesses and really hone in on that.
And as for my emotions? Well...those are never going to go away. I am an emotional person and while it hasn’t always been easy to deal with, I’ve finally come to terms with it. That’s just me. I cry when I’m happy. I cry when I’m sad. I cry when I’m angry. And I cry when I’m overwhelmed. I just cry. It’s annoying. But it’s me.
So here’s my advice to you...take a breath. Know you are exactly where you’re meant to be. You ARE enough, no matter what you’re doing. And give yourself grace. Sweet, sweet grace.
I hope you have a beautiful week! Be kind to yourself. And to everyone else too!
With love and wellness,