I truly believe God puts us in similar situations time and again until we finally learn the lesson He is trying to teach us. Because I know I am often tried and tested on the same thing, again and again. Lately, it’s been something I have been working on for a long while now.
Being in control. Or rather, not being in control.
I am a reformed (or continuing to work on) control freak. I like to have plans. I like to know what’s happening. I like to know things. Period.
Not knowing always freaked me out and caused quite a bit of anxiety and stress. And truthfully, it would cause a lot of strife and arguments in my relationships.
A little more than a year ago, I realized I actually had ZERO control over anything other than my actions and reactions to things. I couldn’t control what happened in the past, the present, or the future. I couldn’t control how things happened in my life. And I certainly couldn’t control other people.
This changed my life.
I can’t even explain it, but it truly changed my life.
These past couple weeks or so with wedding planning and everything else going on has caused me to be a little more anxious and stressed out because I can’t control the circumstances…or other people…or the vendors…or the weather.
And I may or may not have had a breakdown (or 3) because of it.
But then it occurred to me…again…that regardless of how much I stress, how much I fight or cry or worry, I will never be in control. God is in control.
It’s incredibly freeing to actually realize that and implement it in my life. A couple Bible verses that help me are:
Matthew 19:26 - But Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
God already has my life planned and mapped out. And the more I fight it, the more I try to be in control, the worse it is for me. I’ve learned this the hard way, time and again.
So last week…Thursday night and Friday morning, I prayed my heart out…submitting it all to God. Because I don’t have the answers and I don’t know what’s going to happen.
And you know what?? That’s. Okay.
Because God has my back. And that’s enough for me.
It’s tough reliving the same lessons, but until I fully embrace this one, I know I’ll keep seeing it.
What lessons are you continually seeing? Do you see any patterns? Leave me a comment if you have!
Have a beautiful week!
With love and wellness,